I have come upon a new tactic for my job search! If only I was applying anywhere remotely dorky enough to use it.
http://www.geekologie.com/2009/11/clever_dd_character_sheet_styl.php

My biopsy is scheduled for Tuesday. We still think it's fat necrosis. I might have it out I might not, depends on the results.

I just want to focus on anything else but my boob right now. I am thinking of Thanksgiving and Christmas and have thoughts of pumpkin butter, soap, hats, candy, and fruitcake dancing in my head.

That is all for now. See some of you on Sat.

Tonight's special is barbecued chicken, sweet potato, and red potato medallions, with onions, and cheese.

This dinner inspired by barbecue stuffed sweet potatoes. I'll let you know if it was a success.

So what are everyone's plans for Turkey day?

I want to have a few people to my house or go to someone else's with my famous 20ish lb turkey of tastiness.

Also I have an appointment to be ultrasounded. I am not with child but may need surgery or some sort of other medical procedures after my scan tomorrow if it is something bad.

while sewing and listening to Lorenna McKennitt I had a random morbid thought. Women have a longer life expectancy than men usually. Does this change at all when compared with sexual orientation? Those who have undergone gender reassignment surgeries? Do people who have had them live longer or shorter life spans? Just some thoughts from a sewing crazed woman with time and thread on her mind.

I used to have leaves on my trees but now they are on the porch and driveway and on my few remaining plants.

I have 75% of my costume for Roj and Meg's Party done. Also I have a numb finger and my stomach hurts. Sooper's costume is yet to be started but his doesn't require much if any sewing so it will be completed tonight and part of tomorrow if necessary. I have been sewing for 3 days now in preparation so people better enjoy my costume gosh darnit.

Still job hunting. Things are going ok for now I just want to make sure we keep up with bills and stuff. Life is good today. I'm calm and concentrating on sewing projects today I just really want candy!

Today is my sister's birthday and Meg and Roj's anniversary so it is a happy day to be alive for most people. Also happy birthday to Sabrina.

I have tandoori chicken in the crock pot for dinner. I will be watching RSVP at some point today and we will be watching more halloween movies later tonight and part of Sat.

I guess that is all for now, another update at some point.

I had an interview yesterday and it went well. But when I came home I got a call from unemployment and I filled out something wrong and wouldn't be getting any check this week and I was upset because this weekend was supposed to be our anniversary weekend at the Renn Faire. It's tradition now.

I had a breakdown last night and it was something I was holding in and just didn't want to upset Sooper with my snot and tears. My knight had tissues, hugs, kisses, and rational advice that we deserved to have a good time because the last few months have blown goats, no offense to she-goats reading my journal.

Due to an anonymous benefactor I can do some grocery shopping and still get to go to the Faire on Sunday. Please come out with us and make it a good time.

I love my hubby and I'm trying not to be nervous about my interview at 12:30. Have to get dressed and ready for my interview then not sure what the afternoon holds.

wish me luck and see you Sunday at the Renn Faire, if you're not at the NVA game.

I am depressed.
There just isn't a way around it.
I know that it is depression, but it may still not be, only because i haven't been diagnosed professionally.
I know my symptoms are most likely situational depression, or maybe stress induced depression,
but also I have a cold which makes them worse.

I have no energy, a headache, no motivation to do anything except read, watch a little tv, job search, and not a whole lot of money to get anything that may cheer me up. Has anyone found St. Johns Wort helpful?

My 2nd wedding anniversary is tomorrow and all I want is someone to clean my house a little, a nice dinner and/or a movie, or maybe even just a few hours at the Renn Faire with friends on Sunday but I have no money for this. Any day that is special in anyway in the last two years gets ruined somehow. I know the world doesn't revolve around me and not everyday will be sunny but could one good thing in my life happen this year? It doesn't even need to be job related, and I would like to save my pregnancy wish for 2010.

I want very little more than my hubby and house, I just want a stable job. When I am working I don't have time to be depressed, if that makes sense. I just have work to do and the normal stress of things isn't as bad when I can just say I can pay my bills and not play catch-up like I have been since June. The first two years of marriage aren't supposed to be the hardest I thought. For some reason they have been the worst years of my life except for maybe 60 days out of the last 730 days.

enough woe is me and complaining for today.

I was grocery shopping at wegmans today and it was packed as usual, and then I found a spot to just stand in. I had what wasn't necessarily an epiphany, but just and overwhelming sense that everything in my life will be ok.( Read more... )

For those not on Facebook, our dog had a case of HGe.
http://vetmedicine.about.com/cs/dogdiseasesh/a/HGEindogs.htm

He should be fine later today. He has been given fluids and is having small amounts of food given to him through the day. He will need to be on antibiotics for the next 2 weeks but I think he will be fine.

This just means we have to be very careful financially, hopefully get caught up on bills ASAP, and hoping I keep this job for at least a few more weeks. I want to be able to have a good Faire day.

So my boss told me that this position would be opening up into a permanent position in October and he'd let me know when I could apply online. I will hopefully go through the process and be accepted full time. I found out the woman I was covering for is resigning and will be leaving after this week or next. So I will at least have this job up to or into October.

This job can be hectic or dull as hell but any job can be that way. It's a primo commute, pays well, and I fell like everyone likes and appreciates me. I still make a few mistakes here and there and have questions but they are usually about stuff I haven't encountered yet or learned how to do or haven't been given info about. I've got my feet wet, I might as well jump into the pool.

Sooper and I are planning a hair dying party tonight after tasty chili dinner. I surprised Sooper with gingerbread last night and he really likes it along with my fruitcake. The secret is marinating the fruit for a few days, and the recipe I have makes it all fluffy and not a dense brick of red and green dots.

Wedding stuff is shaping up. Yay! I just need to go to Target and get some earrings and I'm set.

Yesterday was full of estrogen, chocolate, alcohol, and fun.

Today the dog was full of chocolate, freedom, vomiting, and we were full of worry.
In short, if a 75lb dog consumes half a devil's food cake with chocolate frosting within an hour give them a good glug of peroxide and let them vomit for a few minutes and survival is eminent.


Please send wishes for a good week to Sooper as 5 days out of the last 7 were hella unkind.

That is all.

PS i am sorry about your cats. I hope that they are ok wherever they are. Maybe they will find their way back into your life in the guise of another miracle.

I am having a several sided day. On one side I am reflexive and impatient. I need to write down my speech for Emily's wedding as I have yet to do it, also I have to write out the instructions for her dress so I know how to do it up. Also in the final stages of planning the bachelorette party for Sat which I hope will be fun. I hope the guys have fun too.

On another side is just wanting there to be work for me to do today. It has been a very boring week and sort of frustrating. But, I was told I would be taught how to do reports so I can monitor the work tickets still uncompleted and see where they are in the process to completion. I am going to guess most of them are things being built, ordered, or just waiting on other variables to be completed.

I really just want to be in bed sleeping right now, coloring my hair, doing dishes, mowing the lawn, baking, or generally wishing I was home right now to be doing something that will make me feel more productive at the end of the day.

I just have so much on my mind. Some of it I have control over, some not. Sooper and I had another baby talk on Monday and I think we are more on the same page for conception than before. Still need to clean out the room the baby will be in, but we haven't even tried yet so we have plenty of time. I would like to get it more empty by January, that is my goal.

My mothers fiancee went into the hospital to have a shunt put in for some kidney stones on tuesday. Haven't heard back if he's ok yet. I assume if he wasn't I would have heard faster.

Sooper and I will more than likely not be able to go to Horrorfind this year. It makes me sad because I wanted to see Faruza Balk among others. I hope we can go next year.

that is all for now.

So my boss John introduced me to three different people this afternoon as the Work Coordinator. He didn't mention anything about me being a temp. This may have been a slip, a nice way of not saying I was a temp, or I'm just looking for any hint that I'm being kept too hard.

It still got my hopes up that I might be kept. I try to take things with a grain of salt and continue to show how awesome and people friendly I can be to them in hopes of being kept. Only time will tell. I really need a job badly especially after the big car fixing we had to do yesterday. I would like to catch-up on bills if possible before I am let go. At least I can then start with fresh debt.

Nonclave was different this year. Not better or worse just different. Even if Peaches hadn't died it still would have been interesting, but for a different reason. I am starting a year plan for Dr. Sweets xp expenditures. Also Sooper and I have developed a combo. I'm excited.

Also I may have posted this before but we got a note on the windshield of our car and apparently our lawn is the disgrace of the neighborhood because our grass is to calf level. OCD Mowers of West Poplar Rd apparently united against us!!!

Today is a day of many things, good, bad, and indifferent.

It comes in like a thief in the night and takes things, leaving others behind.

Making sense of madness and chaos of understanding is the game of the day.

I may have a good day, my friend a bad, and my boss an indeterminate other.

I will accept the day as it comes because I have no other plans than to meet tomorrow.

I wish luck to certain friends on this day. That they will hopefully be healed of discomforts.

This day is a flaming bag of dog poop on the doorstep of my life. I will just let it burn itself out and not stomp on it unless it catches the proverbial house on fire. angry madjulyin is angry.

Writing the end of 4 years of role play in a few sentences is rough. Its not like an obit where you get to describe a whole lifetime in a few paragraphs or have a eulogy that can be several pages. You have to include a lot of info in only a few seconds of transmission. Every word has to count, meaning has to be tossed out the window in favor of chaos.

I have been crying off and on all day at work. Unfortunately it is slow today and I am alone in the office and therefore no one will see me cry. I was hoping for a a tremendously busy day to keep my mind from wandering. But it does, to what malk I want to come up with next. I will have another one eventually, I have rollover. Suggestions are always welcome.

Tonight will be rough and exciting at the same time. I will be playing my baby nos and watching as all the sadness and intensity unfold. I just hope everyone enjoys themselves tonight and I don't cry too much.

I am excited about nonclave mostly because I won't be involved in epic battles and want to be social but in a slightly creepy nos way. I just hope despite it all to have fun and not be bored all weekend with a character I don't fully know and love yet.

I bought stuff for Tristan and want to see Blair soon so I can show him the cute baby stuff I bought, for some reason I want to call him triscuit.

A part of my soul died tonight. Hopefully she will be missed and loved after death. I'll move on but it won't be the same. I just can't visit NVA unless I am just going visiting and after Nonclave I'm having another break.

Job is going good. They will hopefully keep me around for awhile. I was busy until today, 2 1/2 weeks in, when I caught up on all the paperwork that was needing to be caught up from July 18th to the present.

I ordered stuff for Nonclave and it should hopefully get here Friday at the latest. Sat is when I need to use it so it could even come Sat morning but I won't have time to really do a trial run. I will also be upset that it was a 2-3 day shipping and took 5-6.

Extra HAPPY BIRTHDAY to:
Autumn, Christine, Nae, and Caroline

Until next time.

I'm being kept another month at my job. yay! I may now have a savings again. And I might be able to buy myself a birthday present.